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Desktop Confessional

Two Week Countdown: #1

Wednesday, December 31, 2008
8:32 PM

Ok, this is it, the last in my 14-day countdown and would you believe it, I don't know what my number 1 is? Fail. But looking back and what I've written so far, 2008 has been kind to me, with loads of stuff to keep for memories. I find myself single again after 3 years and it's been a period of adjustment but I am doing fine, and I'm happy. I feel 2009 will be a whole new year of discovery, seeing as I've never been by myself and at this stage in my life where the world really is my freaking oyster. There is nothing holding me back.

Resolutions? Plenty but all I really want to resolve to do in 2009 is to apply myself in everything I do. I want to look back at the end of 2009 and say, "I really tried my best". I want to be better in all aspects. Not the best, just better.

Happy New Year. May 2009 be one sweet year. Global credit crunch? Pah!

Two Week Countdown: #2

Tuesday, December 30, 2008
8:20 PM

Today as I was driving to meet Didi and Myra for roti canai breakfast at Raju's, I thought to myself, "Hmmm, traffic is particularly loud today". So I kept pulling up the window controls just to make sure all the windows were up.

At breakfast, my brother calls and tells me there's glass where I parked in front of my house.

"Go check your car and see if your window's been smashed and if anything's stolen."

I went and found this.

Thanks a lot you fucker fucking asshole who did this. I didn't even notice it when I got into car cos I was rushing and because the main window was still in tact. So, that discovery totally killed breakfast for me as I drove home to exchange cars with my brother so he can bring my car to be fixed. It's okay now and thankfully didn't cost too much. To be honest, I was more pissed off that it had to happen on NYE Eve and the possibility of having no car tomorrow night was ....... irritating. To say the least.

Anyway, all this is just a roundabout way of bringing me to #2: I got my own car this year.

It was momentous actually. I've always been a public transport person, which in KL totally sucks ass. After years of battling it out with the madding crowds, of trains being BEYOND late and breaking down, of the city smog and pollution in my face, of declining events, parties and hangout sessions because of not knowing how I'd get home ... having a car just granted a whole new world of possibilities and freedom. I love my car! Even the thought of paying RMXXX a month for the next 5 years hasn't killed me inside yet. (The operative word here is YET)

Next, I want my own apartment (or, share an apartment with a friend or something). The goal is to move out by 25.

Tomorrow's the 31st, and that'll be the end of this countdown. Just so you know, this list is in no particular order. I'm just blogging it as I remember them. It's kinda crappy though that someone had to smash my window in before I realized that I got my car in 2008.


On a non-countdown related note, but equally as important and memorable, Adlin held his kenduri kahwin last weekend. It was a pretty afternoon; blue skies, a nice breeze, good music all around. I wish Ayu and Adlin all the happiness in the world!

Today, I got home before 8pm. That hasn't happened in ages. I have 15 minutes to decide whether I can make it for Z ou k's friends party ... I am honestly exhausted though. It feels just nice lying in bed and listening to all the live concert podcasts I downloaded this afternoon: Thao Ngyuen, Peter Bjorn & John, Au Revoir Simone, DeVotchka, The Ting Tings. Podcasts are so awesome; I don't know why I didn't jump onto the bandwagon earlier.

Two Week Countdown: #4 & #3

Monday, December 29, 2008
10:31 PM

Only 2 more of these entries to do.

#4 I traveled quite a bit this year.

Let me see if I can remember all the locations.

Langkawi for a sailing trip. Stayed in the Westin which was fabulous.

Sarawak for the Rainforest World Music Festival. First time at the fest and it was super fun. Am contemplating going again in 2009 but it really depends on my budget.

Hong Kong, twice. First to interview Wyclef Jean who was pervy in a very charming way (yes it can happen guys). And then once again with mother and brother. In both times, trips to H&M were the highlights.

Bangkok, with Michelle for her birthday vacation. Was shopping like a madwoman and spent so much money! Massages everyday, Thai coffee everyday (I LOVE THAI COFFEE), ate like a pig cos Thai food is the bomb ... did I mention the shopping? Dayummm. I want to go back in 2009.

Portland, for a work trip. First time on USA soil and it was exciting. Sorry, quite jakun that way. I guess all those years of media and cultural imperialism showed itself quite clearly while preparing for this trip. However I didn't get to visit the major cities so I wouldn't say that I've really seen the States. Portland was so pretty though - green and clean, with lovely public spaces and parks, coffee everywhere, quaint individual stores which I am a sucker for.

I lost a lot of my vacation photos thanks to my laptop crashing on me (it's less than year old, thanks a lot Compaq HP). But here's 2 from this park in Portland where I sat for a solid hour, relishing in the warmth of my coffee and the sounds from my iPod.

Sadly in 2009, I think I'll have to travel less. I am seriously feeling the consequences in my bank account, omg. Here's the plan though: less cities, more islands because you spend less cash on an island. It is after all, a frigging island.

#3 Urbanscapes

Before I started working at where I worked now, I always wanted to be part of the team that helped put Urbanscapes together. Since the fest went on hiatus for four years, I didn't know if I'd ever get the chance to do so. But it happened this year, and I was really excited to be helping out with ideas on what to do and also help out on that day. I get a nice buzz when I wear a CREW tag around my neck, instead of one that says MEDIA or VIP or WRITER or the usuals that I get. CREW tag pwns all.

Urbanscapes was, in my biased opinion, great. There were hiccups of course, like the rain storming in around midday and I had to basically cancel the performances at the Lawn Stage for a while, but in overall, everything worked really well, and most of the people who came had fun. Or that's what I was told anyway, so I choose to believe that! Hehe.

Am looking forward to Urbanscapes 2009 but I have to admit it, I am kind of terrified at the same time. Now that the bar has been set, you really need to surpass expectations. Wish us luck.

Two Week Countdown: #5

Saturday, December 27, 2008
5:44 AM

ARGH! I am a day late again.

But I can't believe I almost forgot to write about this:

After years of wanting one but holding back because I didn't know what I truly wanted, I finally got my first tattoo this year. And I can't love it enough.

Pictures by Meesh Gunaselan. I was too much in pain to think of camwhoring.

The photo right above was taken right after it was done. In case you're wondering, yes I did quote Friedrich Nietzsche, the German philosopher. It's my favourite quote and a saying I think of every time the tough gets going. I got my tatt done in Bangkok by this wonderful tattoo artist called March. He did an amazing job; as you can see, it is a very intricate design and was very detailed about it. I paid RM450 or so for it, which I doubt you can get in KL.

Again, I need to be asleep but was so immersed with Guitar Hero that I left the office pretty late. I REALLY need to spend less time there! But hey, at least I can say for sure that I can get by on Medium now for Guitar Hero, teehee.

Making a mix of love songs for a friend's wedding kenduri later. Here's what I was thinking of:

The Beatles - When I'm 64
The Pogues - Love You Till The End
Guillemots - Made Up Love Song #43
Youth Group - Sicily
Band of Horses - No One's Gonna Love You
Beach Boys - Wouldn't It Be Nice?
Ingrid Michaelson - The Way I Am
Joshua James - The New Love Song
Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Maps
The Flaming Lips - Do You Realize?
Deathcab for Cutie - I Will Follow You Into The Dark

.... I really want to include "Falling Slowly" from Once cos that movie was the ultimate love story, but I fear there might be too much cheese. Need to edit that list though, I only have 30 mins and need to re-arrange for flow.

6am - sun is rising. Should attempt sleep now. And BASKET, I just remembered I left my makeup bag at work which means I need to drive down later to get it cos I need make-up for a wedding! I'm sorry I am vain OKAY.

Two Week Countdown: #7 & #6

Friday, December 26, 2008
2:28 AM

Happy Christmas!

And yes I missed two days because I've been too busy to do anything but eat, drink and be merry. Spent Christmas this year with Michelle and family since mine was MIA (parents in Singapore, brother in Melaka) and had a sweet time.

Um..so yes, back to the countdown. I'm already scratching my head and searching my memory for stuff to write about. I don't know why I thought blogging consistently for 2 weeks would be a good idea ... I should REALLY not make decisions like that at 3 in the morning....

But #7: moving to the new office!

We moved in November after months and months of deciding where to set up shop at. The colonial bungalow where we used to reside was quaint and one of a kind but it was definitely too small for us. And the clutter was so overwhelming that one can't even wrap their head around clearing it. It's best just to start on a clean slate.

It was quite a change. We went from Bukit Bintang to Petaling Jaya. From a bungalow to an office block. But I quite like where we are now, and it's not just because Starbucks is right below us. (Though that helps with the caffeine fix)

Scenes from the shelves behind me:

We had an officewarming party on Tuesday. It went on from 730pm to 230am. In between those hours, 12 bottles of wine were opened and 60-70 cans/bottles of beer were consumed. I only had one bottle for those who think I help contribute significantly to that amount! It really felt like a frat party at one point, haha. But it was tres fun and I was so pooped from it that I almost turn into a lane with incoming traffic on the way home - thank God for Ming and Kevin who started yelping in the car. Sorry for the scare!

Adrian giving a ...hmm, heartwarming year-end speech. :D

This was going on outside though.

So.much.food. Roast turkey from Shangri La, fried chicken wings and some famous belacan fried rice from Fatty Crab, sushi, Christmas cakes, chips&dip, salad, etc. I feel pretty guilty now cos the night after this, I had roast pork from Nero Teca, pasta, bread and dip again with Michelle's family. Followed by mutton stew for breakfast. It's their family's tradition ... how could I possibly break it by saying no?



#6 I learnt how to use the CDJ this year.

And did some gigs where people introduced me as a "DJ". Which never fails to embarrass me because I so do not qualify as one yet. Perhaps in 2009 I shall make it a point to practice a bit more.

Two Week Countdown: #8

Tuesday, December 23, 2008
2:57 AM

Black Circuit Paddock Party, 22 March - the best party of 2008.

Thank you Steve Aoki, for the good times. And you too Cobrasnake, for making the too-cool-for-you KL hipsters BEG to have their photograph taken. Hah.

Big xox to Kevin Yeoh for the picture! I love you sayang!

On another non-countdown-related note, I love fairy lights. Especially when they come like this:

During Art For Grabs at The Annexe last weekend, I bought the mini version of Bright Lights At Midnight's Playground Series. Mine is called "Don't Friend", and it has Bob the Builder on it! Myra placed her red reindeer from Muji in between and it is currently serving as our Christmas desk decor (red, green, reindeer - close enough!). On other days, "Don't Friend" will serve as my desk plant seeing as I killed the previous, living, actual plant. This will never die!!!!!!!!!!

And it's cuter too.

One more for the road.

And cryptic blogging for the night that only I will get when I look back on this entry: don't let yourself be second best.

Two Week Countdown: #9

Monday, December 22, 2008
3:30 AM

I am guilty of a certain yuppie pleasure: pretending to do work (ok lah, I actually DO work) and generally looking busy in some wifi-ed cafe. What can I say? I love coffee, am a workaholic, spend too much time online, but likes to be out - so, I go out to a cafe somewhere, work, have coffee, and be online on Sundays. And only Sunday for some reason, I don't know what. Habit, I reckon.

The harder part is finding the perfect place for all the above to take place. I don't like going near where I live cos I run the risk of bumping into someone I know and have uncomfortable small talk. I've done the Starbuckses, the Coffee Beans, etc ... but I found my favourite this year in Pick N Brew, 1 Utama.

I call it my hideaway because it's so damn quiet there on a Sunday. In the smoking lounge where I plonk myself most of the time, there's hardly anyone in it. Which is great for me! There's a lot of coffee to choose from, warm food to order if you get hungry (as opposed to stale pastries you get at other coffee places), and agreeable ambiance. Also, the waiters will come to your table and fill up your glass of water which is nice since the lingering aftertaste of coffee and cigarettes isn't exactly minty fresh. My only beef with the place is that it's freezing sometimes.

Yesterday was Sunday and I was there again. I spent ... five hours? And then I left for Ipoh chicken rice with Meesh, followed by a lounge poolside with a beer in hand and great conversation. I love nights like the one I just had. <3

Ok yes I was Facebooking but I did finish a story today!!

Two Week Countdown: #11 & #10

Sunday, December 21, 2008
1:08 PM

#11 My Album Of The Year

Cut Copy's "In Ghost Colours"

Amazing from track 1 to track 15. Love how "Feel The Love" blends into "Out There On The Ice" so seamlessly, you'd think it's one awesome, long track. Great mix of indie rock, pop, electro, '80s nostalgia. Heard they're incredible live. Cannot wait to see them ... soon I hope. They're from Australia so there is HOPE.

#10 Officially, the best song to roll around in bed in on a Sunday. Dreamy and contemplative, sad but hopeful.. I can't get up everytime I hear this song. It lulls me back to sleep. I mean that in the best way because it's the sort of sleep anyone would be envious of; restful, deep, peaceful. It's so good for your soul!

Two Week Countdown: #12

Friday, December 19, 2008
12:29 PM

Alone again, naturally! It comes full circle eventually.

(Ok i cheated it's actually Saturday as I type this. Girl's got a life okay and time can be spent on better things than blogging!)

Two Week Countdown: #13

Thursday, December 18, 2008
10:50 PM

2008 was a very good hair year for me. I've never received so many compliments before in my life regarding my hair - in the past it was always dry, frizzy, and generally fail. But not this year.

This was the year I met Ming.

I was first introduced to him at a cover shoot for a magazine. He had bleached blonde hair at that time, and he pranced into the studio in denim shorts. I thought he was the most fascinating looking person ever, but I was also intimidated by his fabulosity. And he always looks fiiiierce. Why would anyone that awesome give me the time of the day, I moped to myself.

Then, in March or so, Bombshell opened in Bangsar. I found out then that this was Ming's salon. So with nervous fingers, I typed an SMS ... a very polite one, filled with pleases, thank yous, and such ... asking if I could schedule an appointment with him.

That was it lah. I found out that I really loved what Ming does with his scissors and I particularly liked how he never tried to force me into buying products I don't need or treatments I can't afford. He's brutally honest with what wouldn't work on you and he knows what he's doing. More importantly, he is a genuinely awesome person whom you can talk to about anything.

I trust Ming to do whatever he wants with my hair. This year, I've had my hair long, I had bangs, I got it cut short, I got side-swept bangs, I went red and now I'm purple. I've also recommended tons of people to him and everyone has loved their cuts so far. Ming has a vision for what he wants to do for me but it requires me growing my hair ... so I'm waiting for each inch!

Photo of my hair at its reddest by Myra ... who also goes to Ming!

Hanging out at Bombshell is damn fun too. It's so easygoing in there, and er, you can smoke. Plus when Aaron is around, it's so funny to watch him and Ming interact! Yesterday night I went for my appointment and three of us ended up watching this porno on the computer featuring this porn star named Shyla whom Ming and Aaron have been talking about FOREVER. They finally showed me who she was. I've never seen tits that huge in my life. After my hair session was done, Ming and Aaron took time out to camwhore and pose for me.

This is Aaron, formerly known as Kaspian Kas Kas. He's a total sweetheart.

All this talk about hair leads me to Joyce, who did about the bravest thing ever yesterday. She shaved all of her hair off, and raised RM20k for charity by doing that! Of course, about half of Kuala Lumpur knows that by now since she's updated her blog. I have so much respect for her and she's so damn brave to have done so. And she looks awesome without hair too! Some people are born gorgeous, what can I say?

GI Joyce for the win.

Related entry: this.

Two Week Countdown: #14

Wednesday, December 17, 2008
12:08 AM

As we approach the year-end, every blog does a weepy, sentimental, optimistic 'looking back' post which romanticizes the year which have just passed. I am so very guilty (and slightly embarrassed) of this blog crime that I will not even link my weepy-31-December posts through the years. If you're really curious, I'm sure you can easily find it for yourself by looking at my archives.

So to stop myself from committing yet another act of emo-ness, I shall blog consistently for the next 14 days, each entry dedicated to something from 2008 that stuck with me.

And because I took the Duffy CD back from work today, I'll blog about her song "Warwick Avenue". Or rather, the music video that went with it. It's the only music video which have ever made me cry sniffle. It has a really boring premise though: Duffy's on her way in a cab or something to Warwick Avenue, presumably to meet an ex for the last time. During the ride, she sings the song and suddenly just starts crying. It's very subtle at first; you see her eyes cloud over, and the tears well up. And then a single tear falls; she avoids all eye-contact with the camera and looks embarrassed. As the song builds, more tears drop and she even stops singing during the middle to regain some control. I think it's wonderful that the director didn't edit the part out because it really hits the viewer HARD. Seriously, if there was an award for Best Acting in a Music Video (listen up VMAs!!), Duffy would walk away with it. Watch.

So, the rooftop concert ...

Sunday, December 14, 2008
4:22 AM

Otherwise known as UOX Play, was fucking crazy.

The masses (if you know what I mean)was there in droves and on more than two occasions, I actually feared for lives.

Afterhours at the office.

Friday, December 12, 2008
9:51 PM

Who needs Friday TAG when you gots the geeetar heeero?

Everytime the Boss deposits the Guitar Hero and XBox in the office, the crowd goes wild and is willing to "work" overtime. They're playing some total bam chicka wow wow song now and I have no choice but to layan cos the noise overpowers my headphones anyway.

I want to boycott my Mogwai story and join but I know I'll regret it come Monday.

U.O.X Play rooftop concert tomorrow! Followed by the (unofficial) after-party at B ar S onic with Mystery Jets playing a DJ set. Hot.

The first TAG at B ar soni c

Saturday, December 06, 2008
4:50 AM

Was spent hoarding the couch behind the console, hiding in the corner and jumping on the couch. Joyce already spilled her drink so we've christened that Our Corner. Hahah. Yeah, right. Massive karaoke moment when "Belaian Jiwa" was played and surprisingly, found that I still knew all the lyrics (so did about 80% of the people at Sonic which made it that much more fun!!).

Ming, Ethan and co. once again dressed to kill, stealing everyone's attention. Didi and I love looking at them - it's like an explosion of colour and personality. And they're all so bloody nice.

"I love being in the gay zone," Didi commented while gawking at Ming's platform harajuku sex kitten boots.

"You mean ... the safe zone?"

Cos that's what it is!

Damn beat now, will post some pictures tomorrow (although I see Valene has already uploaded some on Facebook.. damn semangat right..)

Friday, December 05, 2008
5:14 PM

A conversation today.

"So are you taking Christmas leave?"

"... No. My parents are heading to Singapore but I'm too lazy to follow."

"Oh so, New Year's? Any plans? Sure party right."

"... Er. No. No plans. Sit at home maybe."

(awkward silence falls as my friend goes SOCIAL PARIAH SOCIAL PARIAH in her head)

I am a giggly schoolgirl.

Wednesday, December 03, 2008
10:25 PM

Oh damn. I know what my kryptonite is and that's cute boys who sing emo singer-songwriter songs about love. Damn damn damn. I cannot resist. Which is why I am hooked on blinktwice4y, a YouTube singer (thanks Cris!).

Here's an original, "Mercy".

Very nice very nice, and I am digging that lumberjack look on guys.

A cover of Damien Rice's "Cannonball". A lady killer of a song and it being featured on the movie "Closer" does.not.help lessen the swoon factor. (that was "The Blower's Daughter" oops) period.


Ok, and the deal clincher, another original: "Mario Kart Love Song".

Hahah how adorable is that fake moustache.

And the lyrics, omg so cute I is melllltinnngggg....

You be my princess
I'll be your toad
I'll follow behind you
on rainbow road
Protect you from red shells
wherever we go
I promise.

Noone will touch us
if we pick up a star
If you spin out
you can ride in my car
When we slide together
we generate sparks
in our wheels and our hearts

The finish line
is just around the bend
I'll pause this game
so our love will never end
Let's go again

The blue shell is coming
so I'll go ahead
If you hang behind
it'll hit me instead
but never look back
cause I'm down but not dead
I'll catch up to you

Don't worry about
Bowser or DK
Eat this glowing mushroom
and they'll all fade away

to the mushroom cup
and the flower cup
and the star cup
and the reverse cup


I showed it to Myra and Claudia at work and we are all in lurve.

My heart goes ting ting!

Monday, December 01, 2008
12:37 PM

Remember when I waxed lyrical about The Ting Tings?

Now, whenever I love a band, I always wish them mainstream success. I really don't get why some music fans are so protective over their fav bands. If they hear them on radio, they freak out and start spewing bullshit about "selling out". And then they bitch about crap music on radio ... but yet get angry when their fav bands get played?! Um hello, make up your mind you snob elitist.

I want my fav bands to get on radio. It dramatically increases the chances of me seeing them perform live in a country nearby. Being on radio, on MTV, on whatever mainstream channels sends a clear signal to promoters that this band can SELL tickets. For promoters, it's all about the $$$ anyway.

So! The Ting Tings did explode into popularity like I hoped and guess what - they'll be performing live in Singapore next month!!!!!!!


I am applying for leave now and tickets will be bought by the end of this week. I can't wait! Now I'm hoping we can somehow secure an interview with them. I'll probably freak out though.